Had another baby appt yesterday and get to set my ultrasound date for Oct 25th! ugh so excited!Wil had school and was bummed that he missed it! I dont think i blogged about Wil starting school! He absolutaly loves it!!!!! He is having so much fun! His teachers name is Ms Kym, and she is wonderful! They are learning a lot! it seems that it is all things that he knows already, but in a fun new way, i know with all the play and different activities he isnt getting bored at all, yet!!! He knows some names of the kids in his class but not really, he says he has a best friend, and He points out which kids are the naughty ones lol, as long as hes not in that group im okay!!!

Wil got the very first OWL Helping Award in his class this year! Ms Kym said that it was a big deal because not everyone gets one and that they dont give them out too often but that Wil was such an awesome helper ALL the time that he got the first one! He was so excited and I was beaming :) makes me proud that he is a good listener and helper at school. He is such a great kid :) He is awesome at making his bed every morning before school, I love that he can do it on his own, with my growing weight problem it is getting harder and harder to climb onto that top bunk..... he might not get clean sheets for a while!!!

Coop is having fun with all his special mommy time!!! Well the last few weeks we have just spent it running errands, but Wednesday when its just him and me we head to the library for a story time, and try to hit the cool little coffee house for a hot chocolate before hand. Last friday we went out for breakfast, it was a lot of fun :) its nice to remember what it was like with just one little one :)

We have been working with Coop on how to spell his name... it is the funniest most frusteraating thing in the whole world, Wil's name was easy, he was spelling that at like 18 months lol But now when u ask cooper how you spell his name

he replies (in a loud loud voice) " B I L COOPER!!!!!1"

hhmmmm nope, lets break it down then say C O O

"C P O!!!"

nope, C O O

"C P O COOOOPER!!!!!" then he runs away

sigh...... maybe we will try again later

Baby appt this week went well! I am now 16 weeks! So far this pregnancy has been completely different from my other 2. which I hear people say but its wierd when it really is. I had to bring in a list of questions for the dr. I was super stressed out (already) of what will happen when i go into labor, Nick is going to 2 schools right now and working full time, he spends some mornings in East Lansing, and everyday down in Ypsi at Eastern, then works here in howell every evening. I had been looking at spring break to have this baby, assuming that both schools have the same spring break.... they dont!!! Nick isnt going to be able to take aaaany time off when baby comes... maybe a few days from work but none from school. 2. they no longer deliver babies here in Howell, I have to drive down to the St joes in Ann Arbor! which is a super nice hospital, but my labors have been getting shorter and rumor has it from my mom that she almost had her 4th one in the car on the way to the hospital 3. my mom is moving far away! instead of 3 hours she is now 8 hours, so she is going to need some sort of notice before she can get here. 4. there are 3 drs in my office, 2 of which i know and like a lot, the 3rd one i will meet next time but she sounds awesome. But this office now delivers at the hospital with 2 other drs who could be on call that i will never get the chance to meet!!! i dont like that idea at all!!! I really like my one dr who delivered Cooper and did my d&c for me, and was there through all of that, I would really like for him to deliver the baby, sooooooooo All of these reason i spewed onto my dr yesterday and he was like "yeah we can induce u thats fine, but we will talk about it when its closer" and i was like "both my babies were at least a week if not a week and a half early, so can we induce 2 weeks early do i dont go into labor?" buuuuuut they dont like to induce any earlier than 39 weeks..... soooo aall of my grief is sort of better but not really, unless i can get induced the day i am 39 weeks lol..... my biggest fear, going in to labor, having nick already be in ypsi and having to drive myself to the hospital, and my mom not getting here fast enough to help me while nick is going to class and not able to take the kids....... whew When i had coop it was like a week before she could get here...... not gonna be acceptable this time, its just not.

well i feel better having gotten all that out of my head and onto the blog!!! LOL

im sure i will look back on this craziness fondly.... or maybe laugh at myself, i hope i dont have this baby on the side of the highway stuck in the stupid traffic on 23 south to AA all alone cuz my hubby is already down there!!!!!

lol .....

but really.....

we've got a long way to go though!! im only 16 weeks!!! hahaha i AM crazy

Baby 3!

Had another appt today!!! was real nervous again but all is well!!!! I'm so excited, I got to have another ultrasound :) The little guy was crazy moving all over the place! It was awesome to get to watch for a little while :)

I was telling Wil this morning that he was going to go to aunt heather's while I went to the doctor to check on the baby. He was so sincere when he said "But mom, can I go too? I wanna check the baby and see the doctor too?" I told him we prolly wouldnt get to see the baby or get more pics ( i didnt know they would do an ultrasound today) and he was sure he said "mom i really want to hear the baby's heart beat please can i go with you?" and of course if Wil wants to do it then Coop wants to also. They were really great. Wil had an awesome time. He totally knew what he was looking at during the ultrasound, his face was the second best part. He said "That baby is freakin out in there" cuz it really was.

I feel so much more confident now about his baby and pregnancy, I am so excited! So are wil and Coop.

Wil says he wants a "sister baby" and coop says he wants a "sister baby" too. :)

I would love a sister baby, but i will also loooove another brother baby, cuz my other two brother babies are pretty stinkin awesome

Summer!!

Too busy havin fun to blog about every little thing so here are the highlights so far!!! I cant believe that august is almost over. its a little sad! we are buying school clothes and supplies and pulling out jeans and hoodies. :( Summer in michigan is absolutaly awesome, its green, not too hot, every day on the beach! the above picture is all the way back from 4th of July! My boys loved the poppers. u know those scary things that u throw on the ground and the pop, Wil got really good at just squeezing them and popping them in his fingers lol, also throwing them at people hard enough for them to pop on their backs. Talented... my boy is talented :)

We had a little bonfire in the backyard and watched the firworks over the lake. it was really nice!! We sat out on the dock and there were big fireworks that the people around the lake do so we kept having to turn our heads around, but it was perfectly great and nice and close ;)

My cuz Aubrey and her little fam were in town for 2 whole months this summer! They are going to school in utah but her husband got a good job here for the summer building stuff so we got to hang out all the time!!!

This is at a big truck event at the library! Rachel was in town for the last harry potter movie and so she got to stay for a whole week. it was the best, she is headed out to utah today to go to school this year :( i will miss her so much its stupid. Shes the funniest bestest craziest girl there is. She is gonna rock provo lol look out people!

We went and saw the final Harry Potter movie 7.2 in the Imax theater in lansing at midnight. It was awesome. I barely made it through the next day... but totally worth it :) Nick came with us, but his shirt didnt turn out as awesome as ours and so he wouldnt wear it :(

then a few weeks later we headed down to Inidana to welcome my littlest bro home from his mission! My other brother Todd and his wife Catie were able to fly in. but at ridiculous horrible hours..... Not holding a grudge Catie, but wow those tickets were crazy!! lol ur not aloud to buy tickets anymore, I'll book the flights for u! Cuz they flew into Indianapolis which is 2 hours away from my moms house. and i live 3 hours away in the opposite direction. Todd's flight got in at like 11:30 or 11, and Caties flight got in at 12:30, so by the time we had the luggae and were headed home it was 1am. so we got home after a stop for breakfast at mcdonalds at 3:30 lol then my kids were up at 7......... omg, im to old for that crap!!! it was fun looking back, we were a little nutty, and we let the 18 year old drive us all lol but we made it it one piece!!

Then the next night we headed fort wayne where Jake flew in, which is only 30 mins away from my moms house, and he flew in at a normal time lol, but we were chillin at the airport for a while waitin for my bro whom we hadnt seen for a few years.

We made some signs just in case he didnt recognize us

He gave everyone the biggest and best hugs, i really missed this kid. He is the nicest kid around! Missionaries are always a bit wierd when they come back. well Todd was wierd when he came back. Jake sorta was just the same...... Yellin at mom for runnin his truck into the ground while he was gone. pretending he was asleep when i asked him to help me bring the groceries inside lol. seriously? u just got home from ur mission, when i say jump ur supposed to jump!!!!

The weekend after he came home a buncha our family came down for rachel's graduation party where i did not take any pictures. like makybe 2. I have been a little sick and tired lately.... more like A LOT sick and tired, and that whole week i had to keep eating so as to not feel nautious... we are blaming this little guy

Here it is! this pic was at 8 weeks. i had another ultrasound at 6 weeks, I am now 10 weeks! everything seems to be great so far! this little guy has a heart beat, and is making me amazingly sick, which are all normal and good things so hopefully everything will work out past the first trimester, I only have 2 more weeks till trimester 2! i spent the last 3 weeks puking my guts out! the last few days i have been feeling better!! so lots of nervousness i dunno if that will go away this time tho, not for a while maybe.

Memorial day and Rachel's Graduation!

Soccer started before memorial day! Wil has been loving it and 4 year old soccer is just plain entertaining to watch! There are a couple little kids on his team that are really good though.

Wil is number 4! He got his number 4 jersey on his number 4 birthday :) it was a pretty big deal!

My mom and I took the kids to the Memorial Day parade, none of the other party poopers wanted to go. I really think it is important for my kids to understand why we celebrate holidays and this was an important holiday. We waved flags talked about our country and our freedoms and who fights for those freedoms for us. It was really nice, we had a great time!

When we got home we did some fishing with grandpa O and uncle Steve! The fish were biting like CRAZY!!!! the boys absolutally loved it! and Wil is still telling me about the HUGE fish uncle Steve caught...... apparently it was the size of tango... maybe bigger? lol

Coop and his fishin buddy grandpa O! this has got to be my favorite picture.

Wil sat out there with my dad and steve for at least an hour or longer before Cooper and I even got out there. He was having so much fun.

Aubrey and her fam came to visit and were able to come down to my parents for rachel's graduation!! I had no idea that they were coming to town, she tried to surprise me, and it really worked!!!! She calle dme on tuesday and we talked like we normally talk "hows ur day" "what did ur hubby do wrong today" kind of thing lol (just kidding hun we never talk like that :) then she was like "ok i gotta go i have an appt for eyelashes" and i thought nothing of it..... then like 10 minutes later we are sitting by the sandbox and aubrey just comes walkin down the stairs to the porch... my mind couldnt quite understand... i knew it was aubrey, but she was in utah? how could she be here?? it was crazy, once i realized it was her i jumped up and screamed lol.... totally surprised it was AWESOME!!!!!! i love having her here i wish they lived closer!!! someday... sigh

Cooper talking to uncle Todd... that i sthere whole relationship, he hasnt seen uncle todd since he was 6 months old lol!!!! but todd is coming to my moms at the end of july when Jake comes home from his mission!!! so all of my sibs will be in the same place!!! (if we can talk todd's wife into coming for the week of the party that would be perfect)

Nick and Wil at the graduation cerimony! It was super boring... and the valedictorian's speech was ridiculous.... something about a quilt..... it was hillarious

about 1/4 way through the name readings cooper could not take anymore, so we ran around in circles in the corner

ruuuuuuuun!

I still cant believe my baby sis is graduated and movin away in the fall!!! its crazy. She is beautiful and funny and i will miss her sooo much!!!!!!! im so very proud of her!

2 funny Cooper stories

This kid seriously cracks me up, First story... we have been playing outside A LOT, like all day when its nice out, they eat outside, and they pee outside!!! which is why we are potty training now when its nice out! So he tells me when he has to "peep" we call it. And its really fun as a boy to "peep" in the grass, so he says "Mom i wanna peep in the grass!!!" so we head over to the designated pee area of the yard lol..... he is strugglin for a while and nothing is happening i ask him if he needs help, nope i hear some rustlin and he pooped...... in the yard....... a lot .... lol, it was hilarious, once i noticed what he was doing it was too late to stop it, so i bent him over and held him so he could finish lol, then he has his pants around his ankles and needs a wipe and we are in the back yard to i have to carry him bent over butt in the air into the house.... i was laughing so hard, it was so gross...... now we are learning the difference between "peep" and "poop" i love two year olds

then this morning!!! they are playing in their room and I'm watchin TV, then i smell burning, like really strong the house is on fire burning, i go into their room and it smells the strongest in there i check the furnace room, nothing, the bathroom, nothing, nowhere else but their room, so i feel the walls, see if anything is hot, check the lights, and all the sockets, everything looks fine, it smells like plastic, burning bad plastic, i called upstairs to see if they were doing anything weird (ie spraying fumes for bugs, or burning plastic) nope nothing, so im digging through the toy box, maybe a toy is self destructing? I'm cleaning up their mess when coop comes in and says "mom look its stuck!!! its broke in there!" pointing to the up right tower fan....... he turned it on and stuck a toy screw driver in it, which made the motor spark and melt and combust....... i couldn't tell that the smell was coming from there because its stuck in a corner .... lol sigh, this kid is constantly busy in all the wrong ways

Wil's 4! and lotsa other stuff

These pictures are sorta out of order...... it goes Easter then Wil's bday, then mothers day but i don't really want to switch them all around, so just stay with me :)

For my mom for mother's day we (me and my sibs) took pictures of ourselves and we each had a different piece of paper saying something, ours (cuz im the oldest) said "WE" my brother todd and his wife's picture said " <3 " thats a heart, my next brother Jake, who is on a mission in Arizona sent one that said "Our" and Rachel's said "Mom" it was really cute.

My gorgeous mom seemed to like them! she has them at work on her desk!

For Nick's mom, nick's one and only sister Heather set up a photo shoot of our families and made a photo book, this picture was the cover picture!!! it still cracks me up :) Nick's mom really loved it though, and we got some much needed shots of our families together, Heather's kids are my kids only cousins as of right now so the cousin's picture i love a lot!

Wil is such a ham in front of the camera, i wanted to post all of the retarded Wil pictures but it would have taken up the whole blog lol

We tried to have them pose back to back, leaning, with their arms crossed and this is what we got LOL! Wil making a weirdo face and cooper smushin his face up against wil lol they tried, they really did, hopefully someday they will be cool :)

This is Easter!!! We colored eggs and sorta took it easy. had brunch with nick's parents, Nick's senior exit jury was that week so we had a lot of other things going on, like trying to keep nick healthy so he could sing in front of a panel of elitist professors who get to decide pass fail if he can graduate.... lol but he did so no worried, passed with flying colors!

Coloring Easter eggs!

Cooper is potty training!! He's pretty much got it, he was going in and taking off his diaper and going potty so we decided it was time lol. and then when the box of diapers i was using was empty we never looked back. He does great right now, i think we are on week 2 maybe of training, he tells me when he has to go and half the time just does it by himself and will come running out of the bathroom to tell me hes done and needs m&m's lol. its nice though to not have to change diapers, i realized that i had been changing diapers everyday for 4 years....... wow

Wil had an awesome birthday, Grandma and Grandpa O came up for the weekend. The day of HIs bday we went to Soccer practice in the morning then went to Rio (the movie. super great movie btw) when we got home we had pizza and salad for dinner, opened presents and had cupcakes :) he loved it, best day of his life

His reactions to his presents were the best, Nick's reactions were equally as awesome :)

My mom got him some color wonder bubbles, they say they are washable, and so we just went out on the porch, after a while of these crazy blue bubbles going everywhere i started to worry a little..... cuz the wood looked really bad, so i pulled the hose out and they DID NOT wash out........ ugh lol, i scrubbed, i hosed i soaped i bleached.... nada so Nick is staining the porch if it ever stops raining, then it wont be so blue anymore.... use it on the cement!!!!!

Wil is doing soccer!! He loves it. It is only once a week which he would rather go every day i think but he is not the most aggressive player, or the most attentive. He reminds me alot of myself as an athlete ....... but he has fun, every time he kicks the ball he looks at us on the sidelines and cheers that he kicked it, as someone else takes it down the field to score, but at least he is excited lol

Tired

this blog seems to be a good way for me to puke my emotions out and kind of deal with them. I lost another pregnancy last weekend.... saturday, i was about just over 7 weeks.... spent the morning on saturday in the er to see yet again another ultrasound with no heartbeat. There has been so much going on in this last week i feel as though i have had to move on and deal with this a lot quicker than i wanted to. I didnt really get a day to sit and cry. No one really knew, so i guess that's my fault and why its so different from last time. because i havent had to tell people ive lost it. we were in the middle of potty training, nick started a new job on monday, school stuff that had to get done, mothers day, nicks concert on mother's day, birthdays, all in the same 3 days, and then it was just over because i had to pretend for a few days that everything was fine so apparently everything should have been fine. here i sit, back to normal, not pregnant, i was pregnant last week, and now im not,
my heart is so broken, i was not ready for that again, it sucks.
ive spent every day this week that it wasnt raining outside landscaping, digging things up, planting things, pulling weeds, keeps me busy so that i dont have to think about it, think about how i cant go through this again for a while, how badly i want one more baby to finish off my family, how my baby cooper is so not a baby anymore, and i know there is one more baby in my future, guess i dont get to pick when, i thought i had control over when I wanted to get pregnant and have my last baby, i should be able to make that big decision, we should be able to make that decision as a family. I have had 2 healthy pregnancies, why now? 2 in a row? why is there something wrong with me now.... just one more, then my lady parts can break, not yet though, im gonna go back on birth control for a while...... i dunno how long, long enough until i can handle another miscarriage, if it happens again, when it happens again? for now i will just enjoy my summer, being in the best shape ive been since high school, ill be tan, and super skinny*** (as skinny as i can get) lol, ill do yard work, dig up worms with my boys, go swimming and biking, ride on the motorcycle with my super hott hubby, i am one lucky girl, i really am. guess we dont always get what we want, but ive kinda had enough of that in my life... i mean we are living in the in laws basement for cryin out loud, siiiigggghhhh